Friday, September 16
i wish i could see your face again.
today's been a crabby day. all day i've walked around with an odd burden in my heart. and tears that i refuse to let fall, because they have no reason to. i even tried to pick a fight with ally just now. which was when i realised that something's wrong. sorry ally. your opinion really does matter. we'll talk about it again when i'm more rational okay? went for math lect. only 4 people did. but even we got scolded for not encouraging the rest to go. and the thing is, when he was scolding us i just felt so so guilty even though i know that they wouldn't have gone even if i had encouraged them to. we are our own people. only friends' opinions hold weight at this age. and stupid zhenrong keeps using his stupid computer as a stupid excuse not to do his share of the work. why is it that 3 girls end up doing 4 people's worth of work? but it's so frustrating to talk to him because all he does is breathe loudly and irritatingly and then i get pissed off and either yell or walk off or do both. i slept about 4 hours last night. and strangely enough i wasn't all that sleepy today. it hurts hurts hurts thinking of you. of everything. of. nothing. fetal position.
ignore me. i'm just being melodramatic as usual. really nothing is wrong. how could anything be wrong? i've got everything haven't i? both parents and a sister. i go to school. i have clothes to wear and food to eat. really i'm just being typically teenage-angsty. life goes on.
draw pretty little pictures on your skin with blood.
i have no more guilt left to feel. i think i've hit max for today.
it must've been love.
9:28 pm
xoxo
